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[14 Jul 2006|12:51pm] |
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i never write in this unless i'm crazy bored.
i have work later. i don't want to go.
you're cute.
went to the early november show the other night.
it was lots of fun and john bought me a cherry coke.
i♥the boy.
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| don 't shake , i hate to see you tremble . |
[23 Jun 2006|12:09am] |
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wow , today .
i want to talk to someone about it but i doubt that will ever happen . maybe one day . . . far far away .
i feel like it 's swaying my feelings a little . i just need some time to soak it all in i guess . scared/nervous much ?
swam at danielle 's house all day . got a little tanness going on . then we hit up mcdonalds for dinna . holler at cha cheeseburger happy meal with a coke .
came home , sister and i are on good terms again , and as it turns out , she is the most random/hilarious person ever .
fancy date tomorrow followed by the shore . well , fancy date at the shore . i am stokeddddddd . this will be good for us . . . and me .
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| everybody else is gone . |
[02 Jun 2006|10:58pm] |
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cried myself to sleep today .
lots of rain right now .
symbolic ?
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| nobody get any smart ideas . |
[02 Apr 2006|03:50am] |
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daylight savings time. nope. i'm not feeling it at all. i lose an hour of sleep and that is never a good thing. i feel like writing but i have nothing to write about. the 3am hour will do that to you. night time is an epidemic, i tell you. its a completely different world, not to mention my favorite time of day. who wants to cuddle and listen to music with me?
aunt's 40th bday tonight. slightly beat although i did manage to get three glasses of wine out of the deal.
tomorrow, work at four. i dont want to go.
next weekend should be goooood stuff.
copeland show on friday. kutz on saturday. work on sunday.
promising.
yogurt=the best ever.
im over last year, but not the feeling. does that make any sense at all?
wowz.
im so passive.
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| emergency room romantic . |
[08 Mar 2006|11:42pm] |
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hey there lj. havent written in a while. i missed you. ehm, not too much going on right now. spring break. wooooo! i'm just trying to get a lot of papers done. i really have to clean my car out. maybe i'll do it tomorrow. my mom made fajitas tonight which were delicious. i love fajitas. the boy comes home for spring break next week and i'm pretty excited for that. i really miss him a lot. tomorrow i'm babysitting my cousin bc he's sicky. dance dance revolution all day long! ha. oh well, time for sleep.
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| i know nothing stays the same . |
[23 Feb 2006|11:41pm] |
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listening to this copeland cover song over and over again. copeland- the game. if you dont have it yet, you should probably download that.
i believe in love, what else can i do, im so in love with you.
today was actually a really awesome day. i paid my deposit for the trip to cancun which will no doubt be a good time. i did some laundry. productive. showered. drove to university of delaware to visit my little suzie. i met her delpeeps and they were all mad cool. then, suzie and i hit the korner dinner (corner with a "k"). thennnnn, we went to the scrounge lounge and saw some live music. the first band, um, i forget the name already bc they werent really good but i know i heard of them before. then ZOLOF the rock and roll destroyer played and they were soooooo good!!!!! they played every song i like : argh! im a pirate, moment, the hot situation, ode to madonna, i owe you, crazy=cute! amazing. i felt bad bc suzie isnt a huge fan but it was awesome of her to go with me! <3my suzie<3 then i drove home and i called the boy and we talked the whole way home. its about an hour drive and it seriously felt like it was five minutes. i'm so flakey on my feelings toward him. Sometimes i feel like i could be falling for him and other times im just like meh. tonight, im falling. i miss him a lot, however, im going to kutz on saturday sooooo that should be cooooooool. meh meh, i should really get to bed. busy day of school and work tomorrow. bites.
♥
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[18 Feb 2006|07:32pm] |
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i 'm bored .
thus the journal update .
ehmmm , last week this time was panic/academy/hellogoodbye . awesome little show . lots of kiddies and their moms there though . that was kind of gay . people backed out bc of the snow and such but f that s , i was going to this show no matter what . it was fun though . i 'm glad we went . we ate at hardrock and i had a really good chicken sandwich . i wish i had it right now . umhmmmm .
vday was tuesday . i sent the boy a mix cd and a shabby homemade card . perhaps i should have gone a little more out with my gift ? meh . i went up to the kutz on wednesday and had a sleepover . omgzzzzz !
he didnt put enough stamps on his vday gift so it was return-to-sendered , so i just got his gift yesterday and it was really cute. a mix cd , a card , a note , and a racism sign he stole from school . ha . seriously though, it was easily one of the best gifts ive ever gotten .
i 'm falling .
work yesterday =good times .
work today =meh, it was okay .
i 'm hungry .
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| i want to be buried in your backyard. |
[07 Feb 2006|08:41pm] |
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hey.
so ive decided i like blazers but i look weird in them. im still gonna wear them though. bc im trendy like that. ha.
this weekend was fun. work friday was a good time. i did like no work and just ate fried shrimp.
saturday was kutztown which was a fun time. when a stranger calls=worst movie ever.
party at the football house was fun. party at random shady house was fun too. ha.
i'm so into the o.c. i cant believe kirsten is an alcoholic. she's my favorite.
i was boring today. slept until three. sloth.
im cool.
♥
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| no one really wins this time . |
[31 Jan 2006|01:22am] |
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ummm, so lemme start my rant.
i was sick today ( i still am a little bit), didnt go to school.
i went to class at 630 bc its a three hour jawn and you cant miss those.
party at rachel's tonight. oh right, i couldnt go. my car is going in the shop...again. therefore i had no ride. my friends suck. thanks. yeah, no one could pick me up. awesome. all my friends are so self-centered. chill and think about something else then getting wasted for a second? yeah, that'd be nice.
also, i hate when people are miserable. yeah, you suck. okay, okay cool, i get it. you're emo and you'll just try to be deep and write in your livejournal about stuff that "omg i just dont know why im so sad. why do people ask me why im sad? like id tell you? omg, sad sad sad." go cry about it some more bc you know what...maybe i cared at some point but now your just ridiculous. seriously. go listen to sad music and post bulletins on myspace. care about people who you wont even talk to in five, let alone ten years. priorities. oh well, f that s. you have the dysfunctional, crying teenage angst thing down. congrats. douchebag. way to ruin everyone's night/day/week/weekend/month. my sister's miserable mood is rubbing off. she disgusts me. i dont even want to sleep in the same room as her. effing scumbag. i could care less bc im nicer than nice to that kid and she could care less. thanks, that makes me feel appreciated. i thought we were beyond best friends but im wrong. im not naive but in this case i am. the way she makes people feel is just so wrong. she's selfish and deserves more than anyone i know to be miserable bc she does it to everyone else.
i dont know what im doing either. the boy, meh, i feel it falling apart. i sensed it before and i have the same feeling now. i dont want to say anything bc we arent together or anything. i cant ask why he's acting weird. who knows. maybe im reading too much into things.
friends=do i really even have any? i havent seen most of my friends in a while and the ones i have seen (except a few who i like hanging out with) are too preoccupied with their own stuff...
i feel weird talking to people about anything so i guess thats why i write stuff in my lj but then again i know someone might read it so i censor this too. i guess there's stuff that i will just never say aloud or even write bc i have no one to tell it to. i hate when people whine about stuff that doesnt matter so thats probably why i never talk about anything that bothers me. i'm venting tonight and i sound like a complainer but i feel like everything is falling apart.
but we all know in a week, or even twenty-four hours, i'll be in a good mood again so in the long-term, this post doesnt matter at all.
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| sit back and relapse again. |
[19 Jan 2006|10:55pm] |
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hey loves.
things are pretty cool with me.
i had a lot to write like two days ago but now i think all that has faded.
sooo, the boy IMed me about a week ago. we havent talked or anything since july. he apologized, even though he didnt have to, i understood. its nice to know that he thinks about me every once in a while though. we talked until 4 in the morning, about random stuff, just like we used to. i dont think we'll start hanging out again (even though i know i would in a second).
i got a new phone. THE RAZR. dont say i dont cut when i do i do i do.
things with me and the current boyjawn=question mark.
he's back at school and i dunno. i think we are making ajoint effort to see each other this week though. i hope so. stay tuned for updates.
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| oh well, you've got me under your spell. |
[11 Jan 2006|08:57pm] |
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ah. its really rainy out. its a good movie night. yeah, yeah. maybe i'll watch some movies tonight.
so today=first day back to school. it wasnt too bad. my schedule is reallllly easy, and i knew a lot of people in my classes.
so, inspired by celeb fit club, i've decided to start eating healthier. i like bananas, so i'm gonna eat bananas instead of swedish fish. i think it sounds like a solid plan.
i should be a personal trainer. pft.
steph english + ipod= ♥ l.o.v.e ♥
also, i am soon to be a published author. folio, hfu's literary book thing jawn, has chosen one of my stories. score. actually, i could care less but it looks good on paper i guess.
i think i might just be the next hemingway.
tomorrow, fingers crossed.
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[10 Jan 2006|09:25pm] |
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hello all.
havent written in a while but whats new. i really wanted to work out in my basement tonight but, oh no, kristen english! has friends over so my plans are ruined. whore.
school starts tomorrow. bummer. hfu is beat. i hope this semester goes by fast bc i want it to be summer so i can be tan again. yes, i am that shallow.
sooo, last night i went to the franklin institute avec le garcon to check out the "body world" exhibition. sooo cool. real bodies but in like plastic and you can see the inner workings of the body. its weird/creepy/cool/funny/really interesting. then we hit up the art museum steps but i got scared bc there were creepy people who i was pretty sure would mug me circling the area so we left and hit up the dining car. oh the car. i ♥ the dining car!
i like the boy a lot. we're hanging out again on thursday. i'll keep ya posted.
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| existentialism on prom night. |
[03 Jan 2006|03:49pm] |
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christmas=good.
i own all seasons of gilmore girls.
in other news,
why am i so not cool.
ugh.
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[19 Dec 2005|10:59pm] |
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omigosh. its like less than a week before christmas! yay! i'm pretty stoked.
in other news, i have been studying for like the past few hours for my last, and only, final, enviromental science. my paper for that class is pretty much the bombbbb, though. so plans for tomorrow are final at 830 and then work at noon. then, i am completely free for the next month! hawtttt. i got my ipod like two weeks ago and its the greatest thing ever. right now, i am debating whether or not to put something corportate on the ipod. no. ive decided not to bc something corporate=gay. punk rock princess? i mean, come on. okay, well, i uploaded drunk girl and straw dogs bc they are catchy.
so i'm going to the mountains on friday (pod is coming, so it will be okay). the grandparents live up thurr now, so me, madre, and k.english! are rolling up so see them for the holidays.
working new years eve so i guess i wont be doing anything real exciting. bummer. but its cool, its cool.
oh well. back to studying.
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| is that what you call a getaway? tell me what you got away with. |
[03 Dec 2005|12:20am] |
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my cd burner is not working which is making me very sad. my goal for the evening was to burn lots and lots of cds. oh well. i got lots done tonight. scholarly speaking. my world lit paper is pretty much completed. dude, school is almost done for the semester. i already know i got an A in journalism which is pretty fly. omg, i wanna go to the zolof show so bad on sunday. i hope i end up going. that would be the bomb, mannnn!
so its like really really cold out these days. i wore sandals to school on wednesday and two days later (today) there were snowflakes. crazy weather jawns.
soooo, i was noticing that everyday when i drive home from school, there is a funeral at st.katherine's. like everyday, i drive by, there is the funeral car, people in black, and sometimes i even see the casket rolling on the the wheeley things out of the church. its just so odd to me. i'm just driving by, jamming to big tymers of whatev and someone is dead, like right in front of me. its like an everyday thing. and there are these people, there to celebrate this person's entire life. i just feel so detached from it all. its the perfect image of life and death. i just cant grasp it.
soooo, i have to write a new creative writing story. the final one. i have no idea what to write about...i'm so not creative.
ive been extremely amused by little things lately. i love it. so random.
i guess i should try to write my story now?
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| we're not all about it, but no above it too... |
[27 Nov 2005|10:05pm] |
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good mood steph. last night was nice. i went to red robin where we stayed for about three hours...yes, i was one of those people that i normally hate. you know, the people who just sit there and talk and talk and talk. soooo...i'm thinking it might be bad but i cant help but compare him to someone else. i dont know why. i just do. i like him a lot though. we can just sit there and talk for hours and it kind of just fliesssssss by. i think he's really cute too. so this is good. then we went to scott's house where we watched bad music videos...ehhhh...today, work was cool. i liked all the people i was working with today. all awesome. i was there for like 4 and a half hours, made sixty dollars...not bad, i'll take it. i just started a few projects and applied my sister to colleges...oh man, why do i always assume the parental role? i hate it. but at least she'll go somewhere for school? tomorrow i think i might do some christmas shopping so that should be good. i should get back to my homework and stufffzzzz...
laterrrrrrrrrzzzz♥
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[15 Nov 2005|10:35pm] |
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so tonight was like...um...well, i couldnt breathe for a minute...it was weird.
i guess i'll start at the beginning though.
i went to school today. 8 am. beat. i was trying to print out a paper, and i jammed the printer...so i just left the computer lab. i was scared. someone else will fix it? right? i mean, i tried to fix it, but i just couldnt...
i came home from school...took a long long long nap
and then i had work at five. it was crazy dead. then it wasnt. crazy busy. made $50. 4 hours. not bad.
danielle and rachel wanted me to go to this chick's house? um...how about no.
so i came home and watched the episodes of gilmore girls that i had taped.
then, i went online.
he was on...first time since july, when we last talked.
it was weird. i thought i was over him, but there his name was, online.
it brought back...stuff. i wouldnt im him...i just wouldnt. he didnt im me. and thats how it is.
for something so trivial, it was kind of a big deal. now its done.
it smells like tanning oil (?) in my house. how odd.
im going to bed. good night.
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[12 Nov 2005|11:05pm] |
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omgzzz...lyke...im bored. today was okay. work 1pm until about 5ish. i made $60 so that was neat. i came home, ate wawa buffalo sandwich (amazing), watched sisterhood of the traveling pants (***), now im doing some projects bc i know its gonna get insane this week if i dont start some. i just didnt feel like going out tonight. i dont want to spend money on things. i just want someone who can sit and watch movies and make grilled cheese with me. that would be nice.
im kind of in a bad mood...i dont know why...i just am.
i have to write another story for creative writing...no idea what thats gonna be about.
bummer.
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[06 Nov 2005|02:37am] |
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hey there journal...i always feel like i just updated when in actuality it was like two weeks ago that i last wrote. so whats been new? um...not a whole lot. last week was neat. well, halloween was beat, as i had previously predicted. a night of personal revelation, indeed. then, the next day i went to nyc to see conan. its starting to get old, same thing everytime. although i did take some banging pictures at hardrock (me making out with mannequins, you know you know). i met some random nyc guy who was pretty cool, kinda weird though, but more cool than weird. he gave me his email? ha. school wednesday and thursday. i have many many many projects due very very very soon. i must get on top of that. thursday i went to danielle's house where i was introduced to the magic of red bull and vodka. stuff went down, people are shady. i'm over it, and i've learned a life lesson: dont say anything about anybody unless they are standing right there. it might get twisted around, and you'll look like a douchebag. yesterday was a good day, despite being crazy hungover in work. went to the movies and saw "saw II" again, got ice cream, drove around for a little, sat at the play ground and just chatted. i'm crushin. i wont lie. today, work was beat but after that i ate at red robin w. catherine and we watched "saw". i know, im so on a saw kick. i hope things keep going well. cant wait until winter break. ah.
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